STRAWBERRY YAN YAN??? of course

It's amazing what you can learn about yourslf by talking to others. It wasnt even directly either, just thoughts that formed and ideas ive grasped. Everything i thought was complelty out of my reach and control I realized wasnt. It felt good. All summer i have been tormented by so many things. Now I have some inner peace with it. It feels great. Everything is ok. For the first time. Im ok. And all I want to do is sing and dance late at night. Like ive been doing. And I want everything to work and the wishes that ive been repeatedly dreaming for may actually come true. Im ok, it feels great. I seriously need to go sing again. Becuase....Its 3AM and i cant think straight anymore....

I hate how i really want to say something but i can't. Its not complex at all! For some reason i don't want to metion it, maybe prtend it isnt true. But for some reason i dont mind, i just want to hear it all from him. For no reason. At all. I dont like not knowing about the people i care about. And it doesnt bother me its true, just thta i didnt know, and she did, before me , AGAIN. Its starting to piss me off, major. Express, express, express.

CRAZY CRAZY CRAZY KINKLES WEEK YES KINKLES WEEK!!! But it ended yesterday. Because the week eneded yesterday. Urgh. That was the best week ever so far this year...wait ...what? Nevermind you get the idea. So anyways i will TRY to re list them but my mind is like one huge ocean oin the night before astorm and my thoughts are like the huge pirate ship trying to rob my attention through the fog....lmao...wtf...but anyways heres why

Saturday~ Shane , haha.
Sunday ~ Talking to oblivios people, they had no idea.
Monday ~ Surpirse, holy shit i got some dirty looks,my face hurt from smiling
Tuesday ~tried to give smudge away didnt work and got body slammed by a cat.
Wednesday ~ CANT REmber!!!

um ye a fuck th days......here lets try this

besides what i already said::::: i found out i had an affair i got to paint i leraned about karma and how to get sand out of a bra i met two old men who now know about hangover city i get to dance i watched a demented vidoe and now plan on brain washing the world with it i creeped brendan out my parents are being nice emily and i equal; evil biology is very thought provoking o... is a dumbass milkshakes pout out fires there are german kids there just not black you cant have a very long walk if there is only 3 hours avalible emily's dad gives rides three calvins is two many there is a party at house 69 i was invited kink has a whore house in her room yes i can be corupt i met erins legandary cat her house is nice i was completly isnulted to my face the kid is lucky theres no blackeye i have to wear long sleaves becuase i look like i abused its really just me haveing issues at steep rock brendan got creeped out never armwrestle drunk and or strong people fire hurts kerosene smells i can have awsome sing alongs with my mom i rubbed dom info in this persons face talked to my dad disturbing conversation got completly soaked couldnt speak or breath .......and SSSSSOOOO much more......if you read this ...god bless you i know i wouldnt haha

Hey sexy!!

It's actually the kink!!

I broke into Stazzinator's account and left her a lovely new icon as a new present. But she can delete that, but I hope she wont. Don't ya love it??? Ah well. She'll probably even delete this entry too... ::tear:: T.T

With lurve,
Smoosk

omgosh that is the best thing ever!!!!! ok three minutes did you say well here it is give it up for kink!!!!!

1)*~ she like anime/manga/rent/writieng
2)*~ shes the collest girl ever because if some perve ever tryied to touch her she is moe than capable of beating the shit out of them with a pinata stick thingy (just ask the perverted plant)
3)*~ she absotuely hate b...and e...and DIEGO THE DONKEY!!...haha jk...but she seriously hate b.....
4)*~she likes to wear ore than one skirt at a time accesorized with two or more plaid things at a time
5)*~ she has TASSLES....or at least one big one (lmao)
6)*~ shes an awsome friends so awsome she even had jelly beans...but the jelly beans arent why we love her lol
7)*~ she falls asleep in a matter of a second and is up even faster...but then she falls alsleep again...like four more times lol
8)*~ she has two cats two mice and the best doggie eva
9)*~ im mad jealous at this one....SHE CAN SPELL TOCAN adn.....prosttute.......hpm
19)*~ SHE LOOKD REALLY REALLY PRETTY AT THE EIGHTH GRADE DINNER DANCE AAAAANNNNDDD SHE HAS THE MOST KICKASS HEELS EVER!!!!!!!!!!!

if i didnt know any better id have to say unlucky thigs and the stramge unknown are extremly magnetic ....and i happen to be magnetic too..if you get my point...o cops yes cops....they sure do come n handie...even if you cant stand them....*ehem*.....and out of all the people in the world that could of drove by it had to be the only person i wouldnt want to.....great...thats a hard one to explain too.....you wouldnt think id have to explain but......its not my fault and i really want to clear my name....becasue i dont know what he wuld think if i didnt.....URGH

im not a protitutute
your a TTOOOOTTTOOOCCCAAAANNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yes..my not so mindless but none the less mindless babbles that no one understands but me.....i love them...hehe.....IM NEVER GOING TO STAY HOME FROM SCHOOL AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!! omg...i feel like i missed everything and everyone, a complete day of my life ill never get back...... and it was carelessly wasted away...by ME!!!...never again NO NEVER again will i purposesly miss a day of school...It doesnt help when you wake up feeling bad and then tell your mom...but all she says is ::"go back to bed then sweetheart":: what drugs was she on this morning ussualy its speeches and forcing me to suck it up and go to school....so then later today i asked her if she let me stay home because she realized that i would only torment myself in the process and says ::"Your old enough now to make your own decisions"::...it has to be drugs...i hope...either which way im holding her to this statement. YES!!! CHINATOWN CHINATOWN CHINATOWN CHINATOWN CHINATOWN!!!! am i the only one this excited? probally but whatever..hehe.....s. e. and kink.....fun indeed......lol...yes..yes..yes...yes...yes..yes..yes..yes...yes....yes...yes...yes.yyyesss...............I LOVE THE RAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but if rains on saturday im hiring my own mafia and destroying the city ...because then ill get to go to china town anyways....i think.....COOKIE ANYONE!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!? ta ta for now!

....................................................................................................................................im going to do it..............................................................................................................................................................................................yes yes i am ....................................................................................................................................theres no stopping now.......................................................................................................................................................................................................is there???.........................................................................................................................................sure it doent follow what i thought but.....ill do it for my own benifit..for once.......good,.....i feel alittle better now......no question ..PLEASE.......

Well. i cant wait for tommorow.....at all.....if i had a time watch that fast forward time id be in the furture RIGHT NOW!!! stareing at some art work......but today i felt really loved ....wich makes me happy....duh......but oh well.......but i do sincerly wish.....kinks probally laughing her ass off at me

laurkink...........this is your fault..........but it is cute no? lol...anyways yes i will figure this out hahaha